More Than Words – Time to be in tune with my Emotions

by | Apr 28, 2018

How easy it would be to show me how you feel

More than words is all you have to do to make it real

Here’s a confession – expressing how I FEEL is not something I am not good at…yet. You see, I suppress so many emotions that relate to experiences of my past. Situations that define how I look at and treat myself today.

Over the last roughly 10 years especially I have lived my life through my head mostly, not through my heart and gut.

What I mean by that is that I didn’t allow most emotions to come up and go through me. For example, if our heart gets broken we tend to be in that state of hurt for some time, working our way through this ‘pain field’, dealing with the emotions we are feeling such as hurt, rejection etc. until we have a scar that we can see but doesn’t hurt anymore.

You see, I stopped ‘dealing & healing’ with my emotions or kept it to a bare minimum. I used words to deflect from any pain that I openly should be feeling.

A few weeks ago, I realised that my level of self-love was too low. I needed to take better care of myself. So, I became more aware of what I needed and improved the way I treat myself. I enjoyed that hot chocolate a bit more and became more conscious about how I treat my body. Improvement is happening, and I am happy with it.

But still, there was this ‘black spot’ or place that made no sense to me in my head. Subconsciously I already knew what it was, yet my head or consciousness tried to deflect and avoid.

Until today when someone reached out and opened my eyes and heart to the fact that my emotions are built up like a volcano and need releasing. To be able to heal, to love myself again and become the person I already am but on an open and conscious level.

So from today onwards my healing journey starts on an emotional level. Rest assured that this ‘volcano’ isn’t erupting but gently letting the juicy lava flow to allow myself to feel all there is to feel and heal.

I will eventually reveal more about the experiences that these emotions relate to, for now I am still raw, teary and a little tired. Time to be, feel and let my body rest.

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