We’re told that we can heal our wounds.
That it might take time and effort, but it’s possible to be ‘whole’ again.

Yet all my life, I’ve felt broken.
Trying to fit into a system that just didn’t fit me—no matter how often I tried.
Every time, it left me lying on the floor, sobbing at times, wondering why life dealt me such a shitty hand.
I didn’t choose this life. These battles—inside and outside of myself.
And yet, I keep ending up feeling lonely and worthless over and over again.

All I want is to feel a sense of worthiness and belonging.
Music was—and is—the only thing that kept me sane.
It understood my world. It didn’t disappoint me.

I’ve come to accept that my world is, and probably always will be, on ‘the B Side.’
That some of us are destined to walk more in the shadows than in the light.
After all, the world needs those who can walk in the rain, carry the pain, and still fight… and smile.

Recognising that the ‘tunnel of darkness’ is part of my life—part of me—isn’t easy to swallow or accept.
Yet, in a twisted way, it feels like a relief to understand that.
It might not heal all my wounds—it probably opens them up again and again.
But… isn’t it better to feel deeply—both the good and the bad—than to live life on the surface, never diving deep into the human experience?

“Can’t run away from the pain / I feel like I’m goin’ insane / Bad thoughts fillin’ up my brain / Demons swimmin’ inside my veins”

‘Stop the Rain’ by Tablo and RM is yet another masterpiece.
It feels like it was written for those like me.
The ones who seem okay, doing fine and well, but whose lives—behind closed doors—are far from it.

Challenge after challenge being thrown at us.
We keep getting up.
Hurt. Wounded. But still determined to find our slice of contentment. Of happiness.

We keep believing in love.
In the goodness of life.
That one day we’ll get it all—or at least a piece of it.

We believe this might serve a purpose…
But when the tunnel of darkness comes again, we question everything.
Maybe there is no purpose. Maybe it’s just pain.

“When I was a kid / I was convinced that I was destined for the 27 club / I’m twenty-nine, sinkin’ in a bathtub”

Love and acceptance—we crave them so deeply. On a soul level.
But in a twisted way, we shy away from them, too.
Our wounds are still raw. Still hard to heal.
They’ve left us wary of opening up. Again.

We’re not constantly sad, depressed, or complaining about the world.
We’re strong. We’re positive. We show up.
We love deeply—and probably care too much at times.

Maybe that’s why our wounds go deeper.
Maybe that’s why we question life in a way others don’t.

This song reminds me that many of us might seem to have it all.
Might look like life is a walk in the park.
But if you sit down, listen, observe, and really see…
You’ll notice there’s a delicate soul underneath it all—
One just trying to make sense of a world that’s cruel again and again, without reason or rhyme.

“The rain, the rain will fall / And tomorrow may not come / But maybe the tears will fall / To wash the pain away”

And over the last few days, since Stop the Rain was released, it’s been hitting me again and again—just how deeply this song touches something inside me. I don’t even know how to express it properly. It’s like RM cracked open a part of my heart I didn’t even realise was still aching.

There’s something about the way he writes, the way he feels, that makes me feel less alone in my own darkness. It’s not just admiration—it’s this strange, sacred kind of kinship. I know he lives and processes things on a much deeper level than I ever could, but somehow, I understand him a little more now. And I’m beginning to see just how much care, intention, and raw humanity he pours into his craft. It’s honestly overwhelming. And beautiful. And oddly comforting.

I don’t have the perfect words for it—but I know this: something in me has shifted. And I’m starting to come home to myself again, through his music.

Thanks for reading this far. I didn’t write this to teach or inspire—I just needed to say it. And maybe, if it resonates, you’ll feel a little less alone too.